Today I am thankful for...

Welcome to my gratitude blog, which was formerly my 365 project (posts 5/30/10 - 5/30/11). I will continue posting 10 things for which I am grateful to help me (and maybe you too) stay positive.

Here's to optimism, gratitude, and all the simple pleasures of life :)

Sun-dried tomato & mozzarella bratwurst

OMG YES. I CHECKED MOODLE AND GOT A 95% ON THE MC FOR THE 2ND EXAM.

SUCCESS IN A SCIENCE CLASS IS SO FOREIGN TO ME… BUT FEELS SO GOOD.

Day 4: The first person you came out to and that story.

I actually want to share three coming out stories because there was the first one, then two pretty funny ones :P

In junior year of college, I came out to my counselor. She worked for the health center at my university, and I had seen her on previous occasions while dealing with deaths in the family and my quarter-life crisis. She was very sweet and easy to talk to, especially since we had known each other for a while by then. At that time, I had to tell someone and talk about it, ask questions, and make sure that I wasn’t going crazy. I knew she wasn’t going to judge me or question me. Plus, she had plenty of experience in this area, as her office was a Safe Zone. She was very nice and accepting about it, and we talked openly about it during our session. It was nice to have someone understand.

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Not too long after that, I was driving Sasquatch home from a movie or something during Christmas break. I told her, and she told me that she had the feeling.

Me: “How did you know?”

Sasquatch: “No straight person talks about Ellen that much.”

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In order to understand this, you need to watch this.

I was driving with Roomie someplace (our serious conversations always take place while driving). I had to tell her. It was weird because the both of us were so passionate about LGBT rights, and we had identified ourselves as straight allies for the longest time. Now I was… in need of an ally. I couldn’t bring myself to say the two words. The only thing I could say was, “[Roomie], I’m half black.”

Roomie: “Goooood one, Cat!”

Me: “No, [Roomie], think about it. I’m serious. I’m half black.”

Roomie: “I don’t get it…”

Me: “Think about it. Remember Wanda?”

Roomie: “…are you bi?”

Me: “Yes!”

Roomie: “OMG I THOUGHT YOU WERE SERIOUS ABOUT BEING HALF BLACK AND THAT YOUR DAD WASN’T REALLY YOUR DAD!!”

Day 5 - Thoughts regarding inner turmoil about your sexuality; Did you have any? Did it escalate to self-injury or suicidal thoughts?

I’m very lucky to have the friends resources that I have. As I have mentioned above, I was already pretty involved in the community. I knew that being any sort of non-heterosexual was okay. It was normal. People are the way they are, and there’s nothing wrong with that. I was very supportive of my LGBT friends. I talked myself through the situation pretty well…

  1. Not having class in the morning after getting back at 2am
  2. Seeing my awesome classmates!
  3. Chow mein & orange chicken
  4. Grocery shopping at Fresh & Easy
  5. Getting work done
  6. Cooking dinner w/Roommate
  7. Teaching Roommate how to make pasta :)
  8. Fettuccine w/sun-dried tomato & mozarella bratwurst, mushrooms, and marinara sauce
  9. Asparagus sauteed in butter
  10. Finding my test score on Moodle!

Another creation from the itty-bitty kitchen :)

P.S. SORRY London updates aren’t up yet! Flickr is being a booger and I am having technical difficulties!!

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